That's... Yes, that sounds like... that sounds a lot like my experience as well. I'm not certain if it's another presence, but I never really got the sense that it is. It isn't like being possessed, or even like the influence of the guardian when it reaches out to me. It's almost like a... separate mind that's somehow still my own, and yet entirely different. As if the little voice we sometimes attribute to our conscience, or that uncertain gut feeling when we get that animal sense that something is wrong, is a living thing all its own, trying to overcome me and drive me to... To do things I shouldn't do.
I've never spoken about it before. There must be others that are affected this way, too.
I'm not sure yet how I'll proceed. Right now, the only way I can think to test it is by making contact. I can't touch people, only monsters. I have a good idea of what the line is, but how does the incense determine that? There must be something that lingers. Is there more of it inside of people who are showing more dramatic changes? Or what about in the outlanders in general? To be honest, it makes me feel even more strongly that we all need to get out of here. Quickly.
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[ Too bad there's no WILDCATS coterie. ]
That's...
Yes, that sounds like... that sounds a lot like my experience as well. I'm not certain if it's another presence, but I never really got the sense that it is. It isn't like being possessed, or even like the influence of the guardian when it reaches out to me. It's almost like a... separate mind that's somehow still my own, and yet entirely different. As if the little voice we sometimes attribute to our conscience, or that uncertain gut feeling when we get that animal sense that something is wrong, is a living thing all its own, trying to overcome me and drive me to...
To do things I shouldn't do.
I've never spoken about it before. There must be others that are affected this way, too.
I'm not sure yet how I'll proceed. Right now, the only way I can think to test it is by making contact. I can't touch people, only monsters. I have a good idea of what the line is, but how does the incense determine that? There must be something that lingers. Is there more of it inside of people who are showing more dramatic changes? Or what about in the outlanders in general?
To be honest, it makes me feel even more strongly that we all need to get out of here. Quickly.